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Reno of the Turks ([personal profile] raspberryturk) wrote2008-10-20 02:22 pm

Room 308, Monday Afternoon

Reno had to talk.
Headed down to Rikku's room.
Knocking on the door.

[For the laaaady.]
the_merriest: (hopeful)

[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-20 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
"That was ... all I wanted," she said. Carefully. "Okay. Uh. Maybe some bad-idea-sex, except ... kissing you and forgetting everything else and seeing if maybe we're just talking too damn much and maybe if we ... kissed and went back to your room, maybe we'd ... remember which way was up, again."

She had an awkward shrug to go with it, and wondered if he was mad. He was ... all quiet. Dammit.
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 12:05 am (UTC)(link)
"Said it a week ago, too," she said, shrugging. "Forget it. That's ... too much of ... someone else. I pounce, he acts like I'm trying to molest him. Which sucks, I have to say."

Well. It did.

"So ... where is up?, then?"
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 12:14 am (UTC)(link)
"At least ... it can't get any lower?" she asked, hesitantly.

Dammit. Promised herself she wouldn't. Wasn't going to.

And yet she found herself reaching one hand out, to see if she could take his fingers in hers.
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
He looked down at her hand like it was an alien. He didn't take her fingers.

That had been pretty stupid. Like she couldn't figure out the pattern by now. She'd said it herself. She reached out, and he pushed her away.

She pulled her hand back as if it was on fire. "Right," she said dully. "A chisel. Lemme know how that works for you."
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 12:48 am (UTC)(link)
She stared at his hand, and stared at him, cheeks flushed.

"I don't even know what that means," she said. "I'm not ... doing this. This stupid game of -- I kiss you, and you say no, but then you kiss me, and it's fine. I take your hand and it's wrong, but you'll take mine. Last night we couldn't talk, but now we can. What is this?"
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:00 am (UTC)(link)
"I don't, either," she said. "And no, you shouldn't have. But does everything have to be a war? You're keeping me at arm's-length and I don't even know why. Because you're scared? I mean, I'm terrified. Because you're confused? I sure as hell don't know what's going on. Talk to me."

Or else she could strangle him. One of the two.
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:15 am (UTC)(link)
"Yeah," Rikku said, folding her arms. "I kinda know how you feel. 'Cause. You left, to go home, and I thought it'd go bad. And then it did. And then you called because you thought you were gonna die. And we came after you, and you did, and then you were still alive anyway, and I was exhausted and you were out of it and I woke up the next morning and you were gone already. For orders. So I've been ... trying to go, okay, I can't do this any more. Except I still want to. But the second I reach for you, that's when you've got something else going on."
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:23 am (UTC)(link)
"So you give up?" There was a frustrated gesture to go with that. "I can't do this any more. Either can you. So you left your job. Which you didn't even bother to tell me. And that changes everything. Maybe. Unless you're going back to it, unless it's gonna be the same thing over and over again. And I don't even know for sure because I'm trying to ask and you just keep shrugging and talking to the wall."
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
Rikku was going to rub her eyes. Very slowly.

"I'm tired," she said, finally. "And scared, and confused, and I have no idea what you want. I mean that. I wouldn't bet a gil either way, right now. I'd be surprised if you knew. Do you?"
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:45 am (UTC)(link)
She took a long breath, thinking that over. And then she shook her head.

"No," she said. "I don't always ... like some of the things you've done, or ... what it means. But I don't. I couldn't. You ..."

She had to swallow past a lump, here. "You wouldn't be you, without it. All of it. Any of it. And you're ... you, zoto."
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 01:59 am (UTC)(link)
She shook her head, this time twining her fingers around his. "You don't get it," she said carefully. "If I started changing things ... you'd lose bits of you. If I said, okay, take out those bits, then I'd lose all the ways those bits have made you into who you are. You wouldn't be you if you weren't a Turk. Okay, I don't like the Turks, and I'm really not okay with ... a lot of the things you've done, for them. But ... without them, you'd be someone else entirely. I don't want someone else entirely."
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
Her fingers were playing with his.

"Okay?" she said. "I'm kinda lost, zoto. I don't know what we can compromise on. I mean. I'm totally ... willing to. I think. 'Cause ... it's not gonna go away, and I don't want ... y'know."

The whole apart thing kinda sucked. Didn't it?
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[personal profile] the_merriest 2008-10-21 02:37 am (UTC)(link)
"The ... bad stuff?" Rikku said. "I don't like the bad stuff, no. The. Where you do really bad stuff or they come shoot you in the head. I hate that. Or ... is that what you mean?"

So lost. So very lost.

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