"I wanted to," she said softly. "He ... I just thought it was his fault, you know? Because of him, you'd done terrible things, you'd had really awful stuff happen to you, and ... you were gone, and that meant he was going to hire someone else to fill your spot. And then they'd do terrible things, and get tortured, and blow themselves up. And he'd dust himself off and hire someone else. It had to stop. So ... I was gonna stop it."