Reno shrugged and settled back against the headboard, taking in a slow breath and letting all the aches of the day settle in so he could feel them.

Yeah. It had been one hell of a day, was right.

"I didn't know how to date, Rikku. I mean... Bein' a Turk means... It's not."

Ugh.

"I wanted to have somethin' with you that meant somethin' right from the freakin' get-go, but I was too damn scared I was gonna get you killed or I was gonna be some stupid fuckin' slum idiot and I was gonna fuck it up, and I ain't never had nothin' that meant anything to me before and tellin' you I didn't date was me going, look, I'm not gonna live long and I'm a fucker and a moron and I don't even know how to go out with someone and wouldn't know what to do on a date if someone handed me a freakin' manual. Okay?"